It gets so easy to become so wrapped up in my own opinions, wondering sometimes why they aren’t deemed important enough, and why people don’t feel the same way or as strongly as I do. But the truth is everyone experiences music in their own way. Music is subjective. You’re welcome for stating the obvious. But what may not be as obvious is that this statement comes with a paradoxical truth: Your opinion matters and your opinion doesn’t matter.
When someone disagrees with a musical opinion that I hold to be a golden rule, it irks me. I mean when someone talks shit about my favorite band I have to say something right?! It’s almost an attack on me when someone says the band or artist I love isn’t that good. It’s baffling, and it doesn’t make sense to me. I can only imagine someone telling me that the Smashing Pumpkins suck. I would lose my shit, but I would like to think that eventually, after trying to convince the other person otherwise, I would come to terms with the fact that this person will probably never understand why this band means to much to me. This is why my opinion doesn’t matter in that moment. I can scream my opinion till the end of time, but they simply won’t understand me. Maybe one day they'll decide to listen to the Smashing Pumpkins, giving them another chance with a different head space or perspective, but even then, the love I have for that band still might not click for them too, and that's okay.
I will forever know that nobody can make me feel any different about the bands I love. Because when I’m alone in my car listening to Hummer by the Smashing Pumpkins, and I almost cry thinking “wow, this is the greatest band ever.” I am alone with Billy Corgan, D’arcy Wretzky, James Iha, and Jimmy Chamberlin. No one else matters. No one else’s opinion matters. In that moment I don’t care if I’m the only one in the world who likes this band because I know how great they are. I am one with the band, and I don’t care how corny or cringey that sounds because it’s so damn true, and that’s when my opinion truly and only needs to matter.
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